Hospice...Cancer
Life is more preciouses then most of us thinking. One this I have notice past these couple of months...weeks...even days is life is to short. I know when people say it is different when you are actually going through a process of death. Waiting all the way to the end. Waiting to just see if you take that last breath in front of me. Will I do CPR right when the time has come? Will they come in time? Will you pull through to only lay back in bed waiting to die again? So many unsure questions, especially the last one that makes life unknown for me. Sipping on my cherry hard lemonade that will ease the pain I'm feeling to Cheetos right next to me with a payday and a Twix candy bars. Waiting for someone to die with cancer while on hospice is the most exhausting moments of my life. I'm going and going on less fuel everyday trying to make sure I'm available for every part of my life to where I had to stop the online dating ...